It's been a good morning so far. Leftovers for breakfast, and a big cup of English Breakfast tea with milk and honey, and the November issue of Vanity Fair, and a mixed CD that a good friend made for me a few months ago. It's been quiet, and relaxing, and good for my sanity. Maybe eventually I'll do the dishes, take a shower, get dressed, and do all those things I want to/should do today. But not yet. Right now I'm just enjoying my solitude.
It's time for some new music, I think. I've been listening to the same few CDs over and over again lately. Time to branch out a bit. But branch out with what? I don't listen to the radio much, so I'm not finding new artists that way. I do read Rolling Stone, and look up artists and bands that pique my interest, but generally I'm not really impressed with where more commercial music has been going. I'm still waiting for Tom Hayes to release some sort of recording so I can listen to him obsessively. (My dears, if you haven't listened to this man yet, look him up on myspace NOW and prepare to be utterly blown away.) I think that what I need right now, what I'm looking for musically, is something more organic. Something a little earthy, a little more real and true than a lot of what's available right now. Not asking for much, am I? If anybody out there has any good recommendations, I'd be much obliged if you'd share.
So, it's brainstorming time. I've been working on this novel for a few months now. I'd like to wrap it up in time for the first of the year. That, however, involves knowing the rest of my plot. I know I've talked briefly about this before, and what a problem it is that I don't know where I'm going. So, here we go: Essentially, my book is about a small group of slaves who escape from their owner. (Bear in mind, fantasy novel, so it takes place in an alternate world.) My characters flee through the desert, into the jungle, where they encounter some primitive tribal people. These tribal people are convinced that two of the escaped slaves are actually jungle goddesses and try to kidnap one of them. The escapees flee further into the jungle and are found by an envoy from the jungle emperor. He and his retinue "convince" my characters to go to the secret city in the heart of the jungle to meet the emperor. From here, I'm not sure what to do. Do the slavers from the desert city show up and demand their property back? Do my characters go back to the desert city and lead a citywide uprising against slavery? And what happens with the jungle emperor? Why does he want to see them? I think he tries to keep them; it goes along with the whole escaped-slaves-confused-for-jungle-goddesses idea. How do they escape? What do they do? Where's the climactic moment? Maybe there's no big showdown, no uprising. Maybe they just escape from the jungle city and decide to go their separate ways to find the homes they lost when they were captured by the slave traders. But a book without a climactic moment is lacking something. Maybe the climactic moment should be an inner struggle, not an outer one. I do focus on one escapee in particular. Her name is Nor. She has a really difficult time with the concepts of freedom and family since she's never had either. So maybe the climax is just her learning how to make decisions for herself, learning how to want, allowing herself to feel what she wants to feel. Hmmm. Thoughts?
On a further writing note, I was sitting on my stoop reading the other night and got an idea for another book. How many of these are floating around in my head at this point? Quite a few, I have to say. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to do anything except sit around my apartment and write. How amazing that would be . . .
Unfortunately, reality intrudes. I've got some things I'd like to do, so I'd best go do them before the BF gets home. But first, more relaxing, more reading, more music . . .
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to me, Nor's position is the most interesting. With this whole slavery/freedom issue (not to mention the interesting work that's been done out there on the affectionate bonds of the master/slave relationship and the tendency of a body in crisis to seek familiar ground!), I can't imagine how Nor could even conceived of a goddess' power/freedom, much less place herself in that position.
I think it'd be very interesting to torment your character a bit further, and put her in a role (this jungle goddess that she's been mistaken for) that she cannot even conceive, much less adopt.
It's intriguing to me, because this idea you're playing with of truth and illusion resonates with "imposter syndrome" quite well in some ways - are you familiar with this? Professional women are most frequently afflicted with it. It's the feeling of being, quite simply, an imposter: of feeling like one is merely playing the role of an intelligent, powerful woman in a white-collar job, while secretly just waiting to be found out for what one "really" is: incompetent. Is it truth or illusion? Well, there's a lot of illusion (damned nagging self-doubt!) in there, certainly, but it's amazing, this feeling is everywhere, and as I said, primarily affects women in white collar jobs.
So your Nor comes from an even less-priviledged position as most women who suffer from "imposter syndrome," and yet she's poised to become the ultimate "imposter" of this syndrome: divinity. I think it's a very interesting tension. Maybe you should take her to the city and tease that out. Could make for some fantastic character development - not to mention a fantastic curve ball, AND you get to play with identity construction! yay!
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